So I've been off this account now for over a week, focusing myself strictly on my adoptables artwork and applying for jobs. And you know what? I feel happy.
I feel free.
I feel unburdened by everything that has driven me to hell and back for over the past month and a half to two months.
As hard as it is for me to say.... well.... it's honestly not very hard.
To all the people that have caused me stress on this account, I can't say it's all been bad. However with how things are going now, remaining here and remaining under your ever present watch is beyond anything that I wish to continue forcing upon myself.
RocketMeowth used to be a name I cherished and respected since 2004 when I took it as my own. It hurts me to see that now, due to certain individuals, I can no longer look at this name and feel anything but remorse. When I'm on this account, I feel ignored 60% of the time by people I care about, lied to 30% of the time by people I care about, and welcomed only 10% of the time by the people I care about.
Only a few individuals from my time on this account will remain in my life. I've already spoken to them, and I already mentioned to them how much their friendship means to me, and just how lucky I feel to have them in my life. They truly are the absolute best friends I've gained and kept while on DA. I love them to bits and pieces.
I won't be shutting this account down however. I have too much on it to comfortably watch get destroyed. I may come back on here but honestly, it'll only be so I can get into my Stash. I won't be clearing out my Skype either. It's not because of memories it holds or things I cherish... it's just because I'm really freaking lazy. 8U
So yeah. Toodles guys! I'm going to head back to my other account now so that I can feel free and happy with the new friends I've made, and the fresh views they have of me.